In half an hour it’s Yom Kippur and I have to start being all solemn and repentant, however, I am not in a solemn mood. Right now I am happy and very much content with life, Rosh Hashana (Jewish new year), the ten days of repentance and Yom Kippur have brought an old chapter of my life to a close and begun a new one, it may all be coincidence, but it’s certainly very good timing if it is.
On new year I slept with a wonderful chap, who finally closed the book on my trust issues with men, during this week and a bit I’ve had a bit of trouble, but I’m coming into Yom Kippur happy with my lot and ready to continue the year on this vein, I’m starting my new job the day after Yom Kippur too, which fits in very nicely.
I know I have sinned in the past year, I know I have made mistakes, I know I have hurt people, and for this I apologise. I regret the wrongs I have done, the lies I have told and I hope I do better this coming year, which is all G-d can ask of me. To err is human to forgive is divine. I do not count on His forgiveness, I only acknowledge my imperfection and just hope it ends up right in the end.
I hope the past ten days have set the tone for the year, dramatic and unexpected they may have been, that’s my life for you, the veritable soap opera, but I have come out of it happier than I have been and better off, which I think is the important thing.